Well, I'm back
Mar. 26th, 2022 01:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
white_hartThe Lake District was lovely. We did a fair amount of walking, including a couple of reasonably strenuous if not terribly long (5-6 mile) walks and a guided walk with alpacas, I swam in Loweswater and Buttermere, read books and admired the views.
Being at home feels odd, like I've forgotten how to live here in the space of a week. (Being on holiday properly for the first time in two and a half years also felt very odd to start with, so I'm sure it'll pass.)
I think I do feel much less tired, and properly relaxed for the first time in ages.
Also, I have come to the conclusion that if I want to avoid burning out again, I need two things: first, I need to stop trying to be responsible for everything and start making my staff take some of that on, and secondly, I need to feel like I have someone who has my back can help me work through problems. The first one is doable, for values of doable which involve consciously changing the way I manage and getting people who have got quite comfortable with the way things have been to accept that; the second is more difficult, when I currently have a part-time interim line manager who I only see once a month (and missed this month's, as it was the week before last when I was off sick), and my new head of department, as far as I can tell, basically thinks I am the person who solves the problems. (I assume that at some point I will have a new permanent line manager, but I'm not sure they've even advertised the post yet, so I have no idea when that might be.)
Being at home feels odd, like I've forgotten how to live here in the space of a week. (Being on holiday properly for the first time in two and a half years also felt very odd to start with, so I'm sure it'll pass.)
I think I do feel much less tired, and properly relaxed for the first time in ages.
Also, I have come to the conclusion that if I want to avoid burning out again, I need two things: first, I need to stop trying to be responsible for everything and start making my staff take some of that on, and secondly, I need to feel like I have someone who has my back can help me work through problems. The first one is doable, for values of doable which involve consciously changing the way I manage and getting people who have got quite comfortable with the way things have been to accept that; the second is more difficult, when I currently have a part-time interim line manager who I only see once a month (and missed this month's, as it was the week before last when I was off sick), and my new head of department, as far as I can tell, basically thinks I am the person who solves the problems. (I assume that at some point I will have a new permanent line manager, but I'm not sure they've even advertised the post yet, so I have no idea when that might be.)
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Date: 2022-03-26 03:17 pm (UTC)We really do need to organise a holiday!
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Date: 2022-03-27 06:38 pm (UTC)