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white_hart) wrote2021-10-10 07:16 pm
white_hart) wrote2021-10-10 07:16 pm
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Apparently, today is World Mental Health Day (283/365)
In my experience, this is normally seen as an opportunity for corporations/people who have been fortunate enough never to have suffered from mental ill-health to spout platitudes about how "it's OK not to be OK" and we just need to "reach out" and "keep talking" and "help is out there". All of which I can attest, from the point of view of a person who has been suffering from mental ill-health on and off (mostly on) for nearly 40 years now, to be complete and utter bollocks.
This World Mental Health Day, I'm almost two years into a period of incredible stress at work, as well as being eighteen months into a global pandemic. I am very nearly at the end of my reserves and have just increased my dose of citalopram from 20mg a day to 30mg (having remembered that I was prescribed a higher dose a few months ago but dropped back down after a few weeks because it didn't seem to be doing much and I was deeply sceptical that more antidepressants would help with burnout) in the hope that it will stop me wanting to cry all the time. I am very definitely not OK, and I am very much not OK with this.
This World Mental Health Day, I'm almost two years into a period of incredible stress at work, as well as being eighteen months into a global pandemic. I am very nearly at the end of my reserves and have just increased my dose of citalopram from 20mg a day to 30mg (having remembered that I was prescribed a higher dose a few months ago but dropped back down after a few weeks because it didn't seem to be doing much and I was deeply sceptical that more antidepressants would help with burnout) in the hope that it will stop me wanting to cry all the time. I am very definitely not OK, and I am very much not OK with this.