I've been wondering for several years now if I might be autistic, and while I know that self-diagnosis is utterly valid I find that I can't accept it for myself (there's always a bit of my brain that says I'm just trying to pretend I'm special rather than accepting that I'm just useless at life). For a long time I thought I'd just have to accept that but there is now an adult diagnosis service in Oxfordshire and you can self-refer rather than going via your GP, and that's made it feel easy enough that I feel able to deal with the process.